Georgia Cries

Georgia is six. She likes flowers, the whooshing sound of the wind whenever I rock her with a swing – back and forth, back and forth, like a lullaby that does not have to end. She likes the trickle of water from the pipe – going tap, tap, tap to touch the aluminium sink. She is fond of butterflies, but mostly dragonflies, she says they resemble fairies with glittery wings. She loves the colors of the world – moth brown for the lovely earth, hyacinth blue for the sky, and the freckles in a sunflower’s heart. She pays amazing details to everything, and expects nothing in return.

My sister Georgia likes to smile with all her teeh barred, although she has not grown all of them. The widest smile I have ever seen in a person, also the most genuine. She hardly cries, she does not lose her temper, she is patient and talkative. My sister Georgia, the sunniest girl on earth.

That is why it is strange that she starts banging her fist on the wall lately. She has tantrums that begin with bad dreams and a screaming fit that pierces through the quietness of the night. She no longer smiles, very so often a tear streaks her face and she does not stop for a long, long time. Our mother does her usual ways of calming her down – hot cocoa with roasted marshmallows by the fire, a fairy tale from a hardbound children’s book, a goldfish from the night fair, or a pretty hairclip made of burnt copper. None of it works. Our stepfather yells impatiently from his room at the attic upstairs, and that is always when Georgia finally stops.

“I have a secret, Russ.” She tells me one night as I stay on the lower side of the bunk bed just so I can hear her breathe steadily in her sleep. She is not moving, so I have thought she is already asleep. “I am not sure if I should tell you.”

“You know you can tell me everything,” I reply.

“I know,” she whispers, and does not say anything else.

**

The tantrums get worse. She cries loudly at night and refuses to eat her food. Our mother sighs and helps her get dressed every morning, making sure she eats at least a little bit of something. Before going to school, mother pats on our heads and tells me something important, “Take care of your little sister, Russel darling.” I nod, and we ride our bikes to school.

But that sentence ends up being the last I will hear from my mother. When I get home that afternoon, I find Georgia screaming hysterically in the lap of one of the neighbor’s, who is trying to calm her down. Men dressed in brown uniforms gather in our yard, voices buzzing as they tell each other secrets.

“What happened?” I ask, feeling weird.

And then I see her. A body wrapped in white linen blanket, ushered with a straight board bed.

“She burned herself. There was nothin’ left of her,” I hear somebody says, but I am not sure who. “She might’ve wanted to kill herself for a long, long time.”

Georgia gives another wail, suppressed by tears. My stepfather stands watching the corpse being taken away, his face an impassive expression without a flicker of emotion, but I think I see sadness glistens his eyes for a while.

And then it is gone, empty just like how the rest of us feels.

**

“I saw him, Russ,” Georgia says to me three days later, as she bends down to listen to ladybugs’ steps on the edge of a flower petal. “I saw what he did.”

“Who?” I ask, used to her little anecdotes and strange speech. She often talks about anything, also about nothing. The best thing is to sort out her meaning of words.

”I can’t tell you yet.” She folds her legs underneath her and glances at me with sad, sad eyes. “I miss mother, Russ.”

“I know,” I kiss her on the temple and smell the sweat. “I miss her too.”

**

A week later Georgia finally stops her newly found habits of screaming and crying. She clings to me almost every moment, clutching the hem of my shirt and trailing my steps wherever I go. Selfish as a ten-year old can be, sometimes I wish she is not there when I play with my friends. I do not want her to sit by me when I fish on the river bank, I do not wish to share my new kite that soars in the sky, I do not wish for her to feel the same thrill when I dash downhill and wrestle my best friends as a game.

But she is always there.

“Why are you following me?” I ask her.

“I want to stay here with you.”

“I’ll be home by supper.”

“No.”

“Leave me alone, Georgia,” that is the first harsh thing I have ever said to her since our mother dies. “Please,” I add, so she does not cry.

“I am scared, Russ.”

“What are you scared of?” I challenge, beginning to get annoyed. John is calling me a good distance away, wanting me to hurry up and join him. “One hour. I promise I will be back by an hour.”

I leave her before she can say another word, and disappear in the tracks of the forest so she cannot follow me. A game of hunt is for boys, and sometimes she embarrasses me.

“Come on, Russel. You can live without your sister for a few hours,” they like to mock me so. And it is true. They are right.

**

By the time I step on the front porch, it is already late. Dusk has hit climax and now the sky is dark grey with little golden stars. I sit on the wooden stairs, fingering dust with my sweaty fingers. It is unusually quiet here. The light is turned off so unusual darkness lingers.

I stand up, brush the dirt off my pants, and open the door. The creaking sound makes me nervous.

I walk to the kitchen to find food. I know there is soup on the stove and some slices of bread with butter on the table. But again, it is unusually quiet. I cannot hear the scratches of Georgia’s crayons or the low sound of television.

What I see brings terror to my heart. Little footsteps tainted with dried blood makes their trails to the backyard. Golden curls are scattered with the mess, and I recognize Georgia’s paper doll she names Leia, laying motionlessly beside a body of a little girl. She is very still, I am not even certain she is breathing. She is not laying on her back, but her head is tilted to one side. I see the emptiest expression on her face, her mouth a perfect O as if she has been screaming, with tear stains on her blood-smeared cheeks. Her blue smock dress is filthy with sand, earth and blood. The skin of her arms bruised and blistered, with such torture I feel myself gasping. And her little feet – one has a missing shoe, another.. missing a toe.

The sound of the drop of an axe makes me look up, surprised that there is another person in the dimly lit room with me. The scent of fishy blood suddenly makes me sick, but I can still see him. My stepfather stands with both hands soaked in blood, the expression on his face shocked, as if he cannot believe what he has done.

**

I remember what Georgia has said, then.

“I have a secret, Russ.
I saw what he did.
I saw him.”

**

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Writer tyas_uchul
tyas_uchul at Georgia Cries (10 years 20 weeks ago)
100

wah..wah emang mbak wina ni kren banget..bhs.inggris nya baguss tenan,.walopun aku gak faseh beringgris ria..pi aku paham maksdunyahh.....thriller abisss,,keren..............aku mau dun belajar dari mbak..

Writer Rasuk Sadewa
Rasuk Sadewa at Georgia Cries (10 years 20 weeks ago)
90

Cara penceritaanna bagus, sebenarna aku pengen nulis seperti ini tapi begitu nulis jadinya aneh ha3.. Nice work

Writer fie
fie at Georgia Cries (10 years 33 weeks ago)
80

Ceritanya bagus, sayang cuma cerpen, setuju dgn comment andrea, lebih ok kalau ceritanya lebih dalam lagi (jd bukan cerpen lagi ya) - dengan penggalan bagian terakhir sebagai pembuka ceritanya.... ehmmm.....

Writer wehahaha
wehahaha at Georgia Cries (10 years 50 weeks ago)
100

A perfectly told story. No grammar mistake, awesome description, thrilling story line, strong emotionally, nice reading!!!!

Writer Arra
Arra at Georgia Cries (10 years 51 weeks ago)
90

exactly my opinion same like rijon. Your English good, ur plot ok, ur strory NIce,,

yang paling penting baca cerita ini seperti membaca cerita novelis dunia!

Writer andrea
andrea at Georgia Cries (10 years 51 weeks ago)
90

Man, this definitely gives me the creeps. Nothing cheerful through and through. Bleak! Like the tragic version of Holden Caulfield's Allie. And ... in present tense!

At first I wanted to shout, 'What was the secret? What was there to be revealed? What'd the stepfather done to keep the kid's mouth shut? Why set someone on fire--just thinking of simpler and less meditated _Dolores Claiborne_ for more plausible manslaughter--? What was with those stupid coroners in brown uniforms?'

But, no! This is as short as can be. Just about enough to get me thinking of kinds of possibilities--molestation turned murder turned incineration and then it went multiple or whatever. It just goes on inside my head; 'sall fine with me.

This is a good seed of bigger story. Care to elaborate? I'm looking forward to it. Only that I'm afraid the same effect will be hard to preserve--which might be something you already know of.

Writer Bamby Cahyadi
Bamby Cahyadi at Georgia Cries (10 years 52 weeks ago)
100

Seperti biasa aku membacanya agak terbata-bata, tetapi aku alurnya aku sedikit paham.

Btw, buat pake bahasa aja dah susah kalau lagi gak ada ide, apalagi dengan inggris, because of that, i give u ten point.

Baca cerita terbaruku ya.

Writer Rijon
Rijon at Georgia Cries (11 years 3 hours ago)
90

Nice story, good plot, great grammar! Yeah, you're one of my fave, sis!

You rock, sis! Great!

Hehehe, kalau ada waktu minta komentarnya di serial Whispering Inside ya sis!

Writer dikadiman
dikadiman at Georgia Cries (11 years 4 hours ago)
80

Cerpen ini sangat thrilling! Aku suka pemenggalannya yang pendek-pendek. Bikin penasaran terus pengen baca sampai endingnya. Karakter Russel dan Georgia-nya juga terasa hidup. Bagus.